Sarah’s Bella Vie

It’s finals week and I can’t think of a better way to procrastinate studying!
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After four months of stress-eating, anticipation and seriously high levels of anxiety, I got a phone call Monday afternoon that I was selected to be an account management intern at McGarryBowen in New York City. People were starting to get phone calls the previous Wednesday and by Monday morning, I was starting to come to terms that I was not going to be selected. Frantically, I was a twitter creeper looking for students who tweeted about their placements and those who were waiting for their phone call, like me. My mind was already putting together my road trip to Los Angeles again— calling girlfriends to see who wanted to do a road trip and what stops we’d make and planning a trip to Bali with my boyfriend to see his friend who’s a surf guide in Indo. Half way through an e-mail to my what-was potential boss in LA, my phone rang and I saw the 212 area code. I stopped typing. The twisting knots in my stomach came back after I told them to go away Friday night. I laughed. “Hello?” “Hi, yes, is this Sarah?” ‘Oh shit. This is really the call!’ was all I was thinking. At first I told them I had to think about it, since, emotionally, I was ready to go LA. Then, I thought about it for less than five minutes and realized I was stupid for not saying ‘yes’ the first time! It’s settled. I’ll be living in New York City this summer. I cannot freaking wait.
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New York will be more than just a summer internship. I plan on growing more than ever this summer and am so excited about it. Last year was a very, very hard learning year. My last summer in Los Angeles proved to be an amazing experience, but there were things about myself that I had yet to realize and things happened for the worst. Feeling like I’ve got a better handle on my life, who I am and who I’m trying to become, which makes me feel like there will be a lot to look forward to this summer. I have hopes that I will keep up with my blog this time and share pictures with you and remind myself what it is I’m searching for and working towards.
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After getting word of my summer whereabouts, I know I’ll be a Super Senior at UCF and am pretty excited about it. My last semester will consist of two classes and will be able to attend more football games (or at least the tailgate), this fall. I won’t have to work so much, or at least solely on the weekends— which is A-MAZE-ING since I’ve worked every weekend since January with the exception of three weekends that I went to California to visit my main squeeze.
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Speaking of my Cali-Man, it’s kind of bittersweet that I got the internship. Since the only way I would’ve gone to LA was if I wasn’t selected and there was no way I would have rejected it (even though I had to call back to accept it, I was just seriously distraught when they called). Taking the internship means another eight months of long distance versus four. He was still planning on going to Bali, but after a lot of consideration, he told me he wanted to ditch the trip since he wouldn’t be able to afford Bali and visiting me in NYC. Which also meant, not seeing each for three months. That’s the longest we’ve ever gone without seeing each other when we travel once, twice if we’re lucky, a month. Really upset that he would bail on Bali, I told him how guilty I would feel if he didn’t go on the trip because of our relationship. I mean, I made the decision to take the internship solely for me and didn’t consider our relationship at all. A ‘good’ selfish act, if you will. It definitely shows me how serious he is about the relationship, which is good, but after his last trip and a few discussions about long term goals in general, some things aren’t matching up and starting to cause me some doubt. They are things and issues that I can freak out about now, since I’m nowhere near that stage of my life to be worried about them, but being a girl- and girls are crazy- they’re things I’m starting to think about regardless. And things I will probably get over… at some point.
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So after May 3rd, my last final exam, I will be catching up with friends before I leave for the summer, working a bunch and saving my monies to hopefully not blow it all too quickly in the city, and enjoying the time off when I have it! All while preparing for the new chapter I’ll be embarking on. Woo.Hoo.