Sarah’s Bella Vie

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twenty two days until I have an idea about where I’ll be and what I’ll be doing within the next year and a half.

last summer taught me to be incredibly good at living day by day and not being so crazyscatteredbrainedalwaysknowingwhattodonext. however, lately it’s not been as great. I’m incredibly anxious, my heart feels heavy, and sometimes it’s difficult to focus on anything. apparently that something that happens when you fall in love with someone you (1) totally weren’t planning on falling in love with, (2) lives 3,000 miles away and on the complete opposite side of the country, and (3) don’t know whether to look forward to another amazing summer together or another seven total months of racking up frequent flier miles and those god awful airport goodbyes.

if selected as a finalist for the 4A’s intern program, it’d be a seriously kick ass opportunity.

pros

+ hoping it’ll be in NYC or Chicago, and everything that encompasses a new experienced-filled summer — meeting new people, making new friends, seeing new places, and learning that much more about myself!

+ hoping it’ll be for account planning so there will be some sick work to do and at a good agency

+ it’s really a great resume builder too!
cons

- ten weeks of super hard work and long hours, which i don’t mind, but he’ll have to do all the flying to come see me

- graduation ETA would be May ‘11… so another four-five months of 3am phone calls (on my end), extreme texting, and wondering whether or not we’re going to get stuck in front of annoying kids on a plane or the always awkward fat person that squishes you in.
- the chance that there won’t be tons of time to soak up the sun, resulting in a not-so-tan Sarah.


OR if not, then another california summer will be had!


pros

+ all the love-sappy thing you can think of will happen for three and a half months. tons of mornings to wake up next to each other, the obscene amounts of lazy beach days, hiking and exploring california nature w/ the dogs, being able to bring him lunch when he’s at work, getting a call from him 45 minutes before he’s going to be home. and my personal favorite: getting kisses any and every time I want.
+ the opportunity to take lead for a solar power contractors company advertising and marketing, and probably making some very decent $$$
+ i could get my pilot’s license (=
+ i’ll be done with school by december of this year by taking online classes over the summer and then by the beginning of next year i could be a california resident!
cons

- can’t really think of any cons… really just waiting to see if the 4A’s makes this decision for me.

all there’s to do now, is just wait.